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April 26th, 2006

06:24 pm - Maybe I'll have a job soon. For those of you who still read my LJ and whom I have not flooded with information about my upcoming interview (my apologies to the rest of you, who have to endure me talking about it even more), I've got one coming up pretty soon. Details are here, on my real blog (the one that I actually update anymore, even though I have a Dashboard widget for my LJ). Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Chady Saves the Day // Cherry Marmalade by Kay Hanley

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January 16th, 2006

08:28 am - DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA As some of you know, I'm moving in with Eric Ruth fairly soon. Or rather, he's moving in with me. We're moving in together. Something like that. Anyway, we both went to a convention in VA this weekend (I got to rock out live on stage, hooray!) and when he got back to the place where he's staying with a friend (Eric number 2), he found that the locks were changed and the friend wouldn't let him back in even to collect his stuff. All this because he didn't appreciate Eric (number 1) calling him on being a lazy bum. So now Eric II has decided that he doesn't want Eric I in the house again, so he's dropping all his stuff on the curb at some prearranged time. And the real bitch of it is, he thinks he's doing Eric I a favor by not just offloading it all on him now. Really. It's hard to fathom some people. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: BLUE WATER BLUE SKY // Guilty Gear XX Sound Alive by A.S.H.

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January 2nd, 2006

10:30 pm - Eh. I'm single again. I suppose I saw it coming; I could kind of tell that she was feeling a little uncomfortable, and when we kissed, it kind of felt... bland. You know, like something perfunctory. Not a lot of magic. So maybe it wasn't entirely unexpected. But it's hard not to take it as a comment upon myself. To be sure, she was very tactful about it. "It's hard to get past being friends," she said, "since we've been friends for the past 20 years." And, to an extent, she's right. That's a different version of the very phrase I've been dreading for the past two weeks; I can't really say I haven't been wondering if the same was true for myself, and if maybe I was feeling this great attraction out of a desire to feel it. A self-fulfilling love, if you will. And, I suppose, if you find yourself asking questions like that, something is probably wrong. All the same, I wonder if maybe she was just being tactful. Was I moving too fast? Was I smothering her? Maybe I wasn't calling enough? I don't know. I'm very new at this. Kelly's the first girl I dated, so I have no perspective and no experience to work from. But she was telling me and everyone else how happy she was up until the end. Maybe we were both believing in us because we wanted to, and she saw through it first. I don't know. I don't feel like talking about this anymore. If anyone wants to talk about it (join my pity party, hooray), you can call me. This is the last I'm going to mention it publicly, if I can help it (oh boy, Valentine's Day is going to be a treat). Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: I Get Along With You Very Well // The Look of Love by Diana Krall

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December 29th, 2005

12:35 am - Quiz and more Hooray! 3rd date = kiss. And in this case, kiss = 1 hour smooch session. I cannot describe how good I feel with your clumsy human language, but I can state that I am totally crazy about Kelly. And not just because of the affection; that would be reversing the cause and effect relationship. And now, because everyone seems to be doing this quiz, here goes: 1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? Paid my own bills, bought mushroom cultures, got a date, kissed a girl. 2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't make any, but I have one for this coming year. It's a secret. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Yes. Several, actually. 4. Did anyone close to you die? Yes, my uncle for whom I am named died in April. 5. What countries did you visit? France, America. Well, the latter wasn't really a visit. 6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? More money and less stress. (I am retaining Tara's answer here) 7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 12/18, because that's when I asked Kelly out in the most blundering (and apparently sweet) way possible. 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I'm not going to wear out the point by stating the obvious, so I'll say going to France. Oh, and I made a sweater. 9. What was your biggest failure? Sharon. For falling for all her deception. 10. What was the best thing you bought? My audio input box for my computer. 11. Whose behavior merited celebration? Stacy Hamor's! Thank heavens for non-passive friends. 12. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Sharon again. Blech. 13. Where did most of your money go? To my apartment. 14. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Finally having a date! 15. What song will always remind you of 2005? Fly Me To The Moon. The Diana Krall version. 16. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. happier or sadder? Happier. For a variety of reasons, not the least of which is the fact that I went on antidepressants. ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner! iii. richer or poorer? Poorer, though hopefully not so much after I move to the new apartment. 17. What do you wish you'd done more of? Paid more attention to people 18. What do you wish you'd done less of? A lot. A LOT. 19. How will you be spending Christmas? I already spent it! With family. 20. Did you fall in love in 2003? I'm going to assume the question means 2005, so I will answer with an emphatic YES. 21. How many one-night stands? Zero. One-night stands are for losers. 22. What was your favorite TV program? I don't really like TV, but I suppose the Daily Show comes close. 23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Hate, I dunno. I don't really hate people. I'm not a big fan of the she-devil upstairs, though. 24. What was the best book you read? I hate that I don't have time to read anymore. I suppose my AI book was pretty good. 25. What was your greatest musical discovery? No idea. Figured out some neat stuff on the guitar, I guess. Did I discover any good musicians? Ah, yes. Nellie McKay and Fiona Apple. 26. What did you want and get? A food processor and a pressure cooker. And Kelly. 27. What did you want and not get? A lower stress load. 28. What was your favorite film of this year? Broken Flowers, or maybe Good Night And Good Luck. 29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I, um... I went barhopping. How sophisticated. And I was 22. 30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Not much... I'm pretty happy with it on the whole. 31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? Pssh. I have no personal fashion concept, and it probably shows. 32. What kept you sane? Lexapro. 33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? As always, Rachael Leigh Cook. 34. What political issue stirred you the most? ALL OF IT. God damn it, there's a lot that got me stirred up this year. Hurricane Katrina probably sent me over the edge, though. 35. Who did you miss? I don't know... I saw most of the people I would have missed. Will, maybe. 36. Who was the best new person you met? Hm... Not sure. 37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005. Most of the time when I'm whining about something, I'm just not paying attention to the solution that's already there. 38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: Fill my heart with song And let me sing forever more You are all I long for All I worship and adore And there you have it. Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: Cleopatra's Cat // Just Go Ahead Now: A Retrospective by Spin Doctors

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December 22nd, 2005

07:29 pm - Dates and such Since I'm not going to cross-post between this blog and my other one as a matter of policy, I would encourage those of you who are super-curious about my recent romantic rendezvous to read about it there. That is, if you haven't already. Current Mood: happy Current Music: In the Mood // The Glenn Miller Orchestra

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December 18th, 2005

11:21 pm - Walkin' on sunshine, baby So, to elaborate on the previous post: I've got a date on Wednesday. This is my first date in a long, long time (22 years or so), so I'm pretty pumped about it. Plus, she's perfect and I've known her for 20 years. What more could I ask for? Aw man, the past two days have been great. Current Mood: excited Current Music: The Moon and the Prince // Katamari Damacy Soundtrack "Katamari Fortissimo Damacy" by Akitaka Tohyam

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01:56 pm - Hooray Today has been a good, good day. I'll elaborate later, but the basic gist of it is... SOMEBODY LIKES ME! SOMEBODY LIKES ME! LA LA LA LA LA I feel like I'm in middle school again. P.S. Why does LJ have an "exanimate" mood, but not "elated"? Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: 警告 // SIAM SHADE Ⅴ by Siam Shade

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December 12th, 2005

07:57 am - Oh dear This is exactly what we have social services for. Current Mood: cynical Current Music: 青い月 by Dir en Grey

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December 8th, 2005

12:46 am - Numb fingers I just got back from having a flat on the beltway. Having a flat on a major highway (and pulling over to the shoulder of the fast lane) is annoying enough to begin with, but it's worse when it's COLD AS BALLS and you find out that the crappy tire iron that came with your car is stripped so that you can't get the lug nuts off. Thank heavens my parents were proactive enough to get me AAA coverage. Current Mood: cold Current Music: You're A Star // Josie And The Pussycats by Josie & The Pussycats

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December 7th, 2005

12:36 am - To Someone Why is it that whenever I plan something with you, you either forget or change your mind at the last minute? I'm aware that you don't place such a high priority on fulfilling social commitments, but surely you must be aware that this hurts. I love you to death, my friend, and there's not much that can change that, but this causes me so much consternation that I have to stop making plans with you. Until I forget again. I mean, I'm not infallible either. In any case, we probably ought to talk about this some time. Maybe if you would call me when you say you will, we could. At least we're not dating. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: 2 x 4 // Load by Metallica

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December 6th, 2005

10:31 am - And now for easier posting. I found a Dashboard widget for posting. Rock. Current Mood: excited Current Music: DJ Stew feat. Buddha Monks - Funky Fresh

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10:25 am - Oh, that's how it works. I figured out the mood icons. Hooray. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Soul Man - Between The Eyes

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December 5th, 2005

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